Caffeine buzzes and a WHOOSH

So, I got a venti bold blend coffee of the day with a splash of heavy cream and it has made me super energized. If I wasn't afraid of caffeine addiction, I'd get this stuff every day.

I've been on a cleaning spree this morning, yet my house still looks dirty. My carpet is old as dirt, but I can't seem to plop down the money for hardwood floors like I want. Whoever puts white carpet in a house is nuts.

I had a whoosh this week. HOORAY! I'm down 6 pounds this week. This is much better than 1 or 2 pounds like I had been losing recently. Back to basics has really helped. I'll try to stick with this for next week as well. The week after that I'll be in Atlanta for a work conference, so I'm not sure how close to plan I will be able to stay. I know they are having a wine tasting, and despite the carbs, I definatley want to partake in that. It should be interesting to see my coworkers drunk. I'm about the most self-conscious drunk there is, so I don't think I will get into any trouble. *fingers crossed*

Another day, another paycheck spent...

Why is it that I get paid on one day, and not but 4 days later, 3/4 of my paycheck is gone? Damn bills. Then I'm sitting broke for another 12 days waiting for the next paycheck. And the vicious cycle continues! Tis life I suppose. Thank God I love my job. It's going to be stressful next week though as I'll be in Louisville training a new employee while another one of my employees is leaving. Should be a true test of my management potential. Let's hope I don't screw up royally.

So good 'ol Aunt Flo is in town (I know, TMI!) and I have cramps like the dickens. I haven't had cramps this bad in years. Not a good time to need to go shopping for new clothes. Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow and can venture out all by my lonesome unless one of you folks wants to tramp around town while I bitch and moan about everything I try on. No takers? What a surprise!

I did get my hair chopped today, and I feel really great about it. I got like 3-4 inches taken off and got my roots touched up with a little bit of a darker caramel than I had before. Maybe this will give me the boost of confidence I need for the work conference I am going to in 2 weeks.

I'm in a cleaning frenzy right now- I've been sucking up spiderwebs (and spiders) with my handy-dandy vacuum all weekend. It gives me the creepy crawlies to think about it. *shivers*

That's about all the ramblings I've got for today. Exciting- isn't it? Um, no.

Ramblings for Sunday

So, last week I didn't lose any weight. It was the first week since starting LCing that I didn't lose anything, and I was a little concerned. I'd probably get flamed if I called it a "stall" but that's what it felt like to me. Thank goodness I lost some this week. When you have over 200 more pounds to lose, it seems like an impossible feat. Thank God for Low Carb Friends!

I rented 3 movies this weekend: Spanglish, Phantom of the Opera, and Closer. I haven't watched Phantom yet. Spanglish was good- I give it 3 stars. I really didn't like Closer and don't really understand all the hype behind it.

So, I haven't had any applications for friends yet (see previous post), but I'm still holding out hope.

I have a fever blister the size of Texas on my lip. I think it's stress related. Lauren (my 117 lb., size 0-2 sister) said I should try yoga, but I sure as hell cannot contort my body into those abnormal positions. Is she crazy?!?! Oy, it hurts to just think about it!

I was trying to think yesterday about the most exciting moments I've had recently, and I could only come up with 2- and they really didn't have to do with me. Here they are:

1. My boss's best friend is the sister of the trainer of the horse who came in 2nd in the KY Derby. Watching the end of the race was the most exciting 30 seconds of my life in a while- sad huh?! After the 30 seconds came in the regret that I didn't bet on the damn horse because it paid out $70+ to place and $30-something+ to show.

2. Watching Uchenna and Joyce win on The Amazing Race. I actually cried for them and jumped up and screamed! This is another prime example of how my life lately has to be lived vicariously through others. *sigh* LOL!!!

Ok, that's enough talking about me for now.

So, I have made a decision...

I am not getting my MBA this year. I thought long and hard about this, even called my dad for advise- which doesn't happen very often. I think that with the weight loss and the promotion, I should really focus on those 2 things- losing my weight, and trying my darndest to succeed at my new job. I think that the promotion happened for a reason, just like my job offer last year happened for a reason, and I'm going to take it and run with it.

There is a slight tinge of worry that I am making a mistake, but I have to believe that it just isn't right for me this year. I am only 24, and the average starting age for the program is like 28, so I have plenty of time to catch up. I'm not going to have kids or anything for a long time, and I think that would be the only thing that would hold me back from pursuing this in the future.

If you think I'm making a mistake, let me know. But, I felt a huge rush of relief when I finally said it out loud- like this pressure and anxiety was taken away. We'll see how I feel in a few days...

Knock, knock, 50 pound club, can I come in?

So today was weigh-in for me, and I'm down 4 lbs. this week. I really attribute this to having no LC ice cream bars and drinking lots of water (1 gallon per day). I want to sustain this 4 lbs. a week since I have so much to lose, although I know that's a little unrealistic. I have to go to my company's national conference in June (in Atlanta), and I want to be as small as possible for that. I really want to feel confident and great in what I look like there. They are taking us to a Braves game and of course I'm worried about fitting into the seats. The last time I went to a game, it was a Reds game, and I was a size 22-24. I fit okay then.

I was out in Hamburg (this mega-center with restaurants, movies, tons of shops) yesterday because David wanted to run in Moes for some nachos, and I was looking at all of the people out with their friends having a great time, and it really made me feel bad. How do I find friends like that? Why can't I have the confidence to go out like that and just do whatever I please without worrying that people are looking at me? I hope this is something I can conquer as the weight comes off. If anyone has suggestions on how to make friends, let me know, because I'm all for that. For those of you that don't know, most of my good friends moved away after graduating college. My best friend Anne lives in Boston, and I can't wait for the day that her and her hubby move to Louisville. I feel like I should post an ad for a friend, so here goes:

Wanted: A Friend.
24 year old Asian-Caucasian workaholic female in Kentucky seeking a friend, any age, who likes movies, shopping, poker, and reality-tv. Some sympathy or empathy for the overweight is a must. Must be willing to go to Edwin McCain concerts once a year, even if you don't know who he is. Friend would be in contention to be a bridesmaid in my wedding, should my boyfriend ever decide to propose. Email a must. All applicants should email me with their qualifications.