Officially 80
So today I "officially" weighed myself in, and my total loss so far *drumroll please...* is 84 pounds! Hooray!!!!!!!!!! And to top it off, I tried on some Old Navy size 26 capris I ordered online like forever ago, and a couple of weeks ago I couldn't get them over my hips, but today I could button and zip them! They're low-rise though, so I'm not going to be wearing them out in public for a while until my hips get a little smaller, but I was very excited about that :)
Victories!
After losing 80 pounds, you think I would be excited- right? Well, don't get me wrong- I am excited, but when I do the calculations to figure out how much more I have to lose, and then estimate the time it will take for me to get there, I get discouraged. How the heck did I get to that high of a weight in the first place? Of course I know the answer to that, but I need to keep myself focused ahead to the future instead of looking back. Every time I see someone I haven't seen in a few months and they don't say anything, I worry that people can't tell a difference. Nevermind the fact that I know I started at nearly a size 34 and am now can fit into some 26's- the affirmation from other people is something I really get hung up on. To keep me from thinking about this, I've decided to post some victories, no matter how small or insignificant they may seem to others.
- I was at Target and went to the shoe section to find some cheap-but-cute flip flops to wear on the airplane, and I saw a cute pair of dress shoes. For people who don't know my issues with my feet- I have to wear 11 Wide which really limits my shoe selection, and when I do find cute shoes in that size, I have to pay an enormous amount of money for them. Well, I decided I would try on this pair of cute brown slingbacks that would look awesome with my new brown suit, and they fit!!! I was very excited to spend less than $80 on a pair of cute shoes that I didn't have to squeeze my feet into.
- My rolls didn't hang over the armrests of the airplane seats
- I can now wrap my hand around my entire wrist again- sounds weird- grasp your opposite wrist with your hand- and the middle finger and thumb touch. I know I'm a freak for thinking this is a victory, but my wrists are getting smaller
- I walk a lot faster when I'm at the grocery store. I used to move at snail pace because it would wear me out, but now I'm moving at normal speed
And now for my big victory of the week: I got another raise!!! WOOHOO! I'm making over 40% more than I was this time a year ago.
Now I Remember Why...
... I do low carb! I have been out of town all week on a business trip to Dallas, and as I had planned before, I ate "regular" all week. WOW what a difference carbs make in the way I feel. Now, after 5 days of eating "regular," here are the problems I've run into:
- I feel extremely bloated
- My legs and feet are very swollen
- At every single meal, I over ate by a lot- never felt satisfied
- Following every meal or snack, I was overcome by a feeling of a stuffed stomach, sometimes accompanied by nausea and low blood sugar
- I couldn't sleep
- My focus was not as sharp
Now, I know that people could point to my traveling being the problem behind half of these symptoms, but I can tell the difference! The up side is that I was able to eat all of the foods that I secretly was complaining about missing, and now I'm over them. So starting again tomorrow, back to meat and eggs for at least 3 days to flush my body of these poisons, and then get back on the wagon. As the saying goes, "nothing tastes as good as thin feels." Even though I'm far from thin, being able to fit in some 26's as opposed to my 32's and 34's is enough to keep me going!
The Whooshie Fairy
Among us low carbers, there is this mythical creature called
The Whooshie Fairy. There are variations on what we call The Whooshie Fairy including Whooshie Goddess, Whoosh Gods, Woosh Fairy, etc. No matter what we call he/she/it, the Whooshie Fairy has 1 purpose: to travel around the world delivering frustrated LC'ers a much needed weight loss push. The person who has the Whooshie Fairy visiting them often does not want to let he/she/it go, but the Whooshie Fairy cannot be hogged or taken for granted, as he/she/it must continue the mission of bringing slow-losing or stalled LC'ers a push to keep on keepin' on. The Whooshie Fairy has a few helpers that he/she/it uses in conjunction with when about to deliver the whoosh. These include meat, eggs, and water. Without these helpers, the Whooshie Fairy wouldn't be very successful in completing it's mission. I would like to send a shout out to the Whooshie fairy, who visited me this week to lessen my airplane anxiety. Much props to you, meat, eggs, and water. You guys do a great job. While I would like to hog you, I know that it won't do me any good. So go on Whooshie Fairy & Co. and continue spreading joy to other LC'ers who need your help!
Phil Margera and Airplane anxiety
I know I've written before about my airplane anxiety. It's just increased ten-fold. Here's why:
So I turned on the TV, and
Celebrity Fit Club 2 is on VH1. I really liked this show last season, and it really did motivate me to get my ass in gear and start working on getting the pounds down. Well, as I'm watching it today, I see the biggest guy, Phil Margera, get up on the scale. I think "thank God this year while I'm watching it I don't weigh as much as the biggest guy on this show (last season it was Ralphie May, and at that time, I weighed even with him). So Phil get's on the scale and he's 350-something I think. Then it says he is 5'11. And the flip out ensues. How can I weigh 20 pounds more, and be 1 inch shorter than this man??? Am I that huge? So now instead of being excited I've lost over 70 pounds, I'm freaking out because Viva La Bam's dad is smaller than me!!! Now, don't get me wrong, Phil is cool and all, but in regards to my confidence- this is a total bust. I'm very deflated. I had so much enthusiasm earlier today because my pants were literally falling off and because I resisted free bagels. But no matter what I tell myself today, I will be larger than Phil Margera when I get on that damn airplane. I know a seatbelt won't fit around his waist- how the hell is it going to fit around mine?
@#%*^& Fireworks!!!
OK, so I know it's the 4th of July holiday, but must people be setting off fireworks and firecrackers all damn night? It started Friday night and is still going on tonight. I mean, come on! I understand doing it the 4th, but all weekend? When these pyromaniacs are lighting these things, do you think they are thinking about how wonderful America is and all of the freedoms we are provided in this great nation of ours? I'll give a few the benefit of the doubt, but all of these hoodlum teenagers setting the majority of these are probably not. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr...... Maybe I'm just being a fuddy-duddy, but I want my sleep!
[End of fireworks rant]
I am down another 3.4 pounds this week.HOORAY! I made a couple new low carb discoveries this week: Bison burgers and whey protein powder. I am going to make a glowing endorsment of
Ted's Montana Grill out in the Hamburg section of Lexington. (Check their site out for other locations) Great service, great prices, great low carb selections. They have this burger called the "Kitchen Sink." It was a bison (or beef, but I chose bison) burger with a fried egg, ham, sauteed onions and mushrooms, and choice of cheese. Talk about LC heaven! And I got grilled asparagus instead of fries- YUM. With the large tub of protein powder I bought, I have concocted a shake that has been holding me over while I'm craving sweets. Nothing fancy, just powder, water, ice, heavy whipping cream, and vanilla DaVinci's SF syrup. Tastes like a milkshake!
Also this week, I got haircut. I really like it. I'll post a pic here:
Happy 4th of July everyone!!! Be safe, and remember the reason we're celebrating!
