Ramblings of a Ho

Out of the comfort zone

Hard restart is still in effect, although the results are not instantaneous and the gratification hasn't been realized yet.

I'm in Missoula, MT this week for work. I bitched out how boring Missoula would be. But you know, it is an incredibly beautiful city. The nature is great, people walk everywhere, and the weather is just fantastic. Unfortunatley, haven't taken many pictures, but here is one from dinner the other night on a patio overlooking the Clark Fork river. I'm not a nature person by any means. But this town has a small town feel with amenities of a bigger city, plus wonders such as Yellowstone National Park within it's reach. Families are riding bikes around tons of nature trails, dogs are running around in green parks, it's just great.




Today I did something I've never done before: eat at a restaurant by myself. Sounds totally minor right? Well, I am just an insecure person, but I wanted to enjoy my last night here. Other nights (and lunches), 2 other people attending the same meeting as I were kind enough to let me tag a long. It was so much appreciated and actually really fun. But tonight was different. I went to the hotel restaurant and sat on the patio overlooking the park while a band played at another nearby park in the background. Kids were laughing, dogs were running, it was just great. I sat by myself at a 5 person table and read a magazine and people-watched. I ordered a salad and salmon. And you know what? It was actually nice. I didn't have to worry about being engaged in conversation or being funny or witty (which most of the time, just comes out as sarcasm in my voice). I mentioned to the hostess that I'm from Kentucky, and low and behold, one of the bartenders was too, so he came over and we spoke at length about Keeneland and I rambled about the Dame being closed down for a hotel/condo development. It was great.

So, I survived eating dinner alone by myself at a restaurant. I don't really have a point, other than to realize that it's progress that I'm making- into just being more comfortable with what I have and who I am. :)

posted by Emily Ho Sandford at 10:39 PM | 0 comment(s)

Hard Restart

So, just like you can hard reset your computer or your cell phone, I think I need to hard reset myself. I did it yesterday, and hopefully I can figure out what is holding me back. My weight is always a source of concern, so I re-started Atkins again yesterday. I'm also working on being a better worker, more creative, better wife (I'm a bitch a lot of the times, poor David, although he is so fantastic about it- can't ask for anything more), better friend, just more productive and happy.
And I'm going to take up hobbies, like selling on EBay and learning how to sew quilts and handbags (really, anything, since I don't know how to use a sewing machine).
Wish me luck!

posted by Emily Ho Sandford at 8:13 AM | 0 comment(s)